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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

8:41 AM

so today during our 1 hour break we decided to go galavanting under the blocks in tampines and we discovered this old man who was uber cool.he sat down there watching us run in the run,take photos of each other throwing things on to the ground and more puff puff puff.after that he took out his sexy samporna and offered us.so cool when most would scold us for being a nuisance.AND AND AND today's the day where i found out that it is the oldies who contribute to litter more than the youths.indeed indeed.school's getting better.though i still have yet to get my groove back.and facebook is preventing me from paying attention during lectures.i think i spend more time on scrabulous than anything else right now.boohoohoo.

i realised that i do not lead an exciting life despite majority of my friends telling me such.do i appear that way somehow?wierd that most would think that i am a social butterfly when in fact i do like spending time on my own dabbling in my own little what nots.sometimes i really wonder what kind of impressions do i leave on people.is it good or bad.do my friends actually know who the real jessica is.or are they just looking at me superficially.funny how i tend to get pretty paranoid about what people think of me.call it insecurity or what not.but owells i dont quite think i am.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, October 27, 2007

10:20 AM

this week was effing fun.first week back to school and am officially taking 6 subjects instead of 5 so i guess that should be pretty interesting.well kinda in a wierd exciting warpped up way.though im still a little apprehensive about my cds classes especially the tutorials as i must say i cant quite click with most of them?well kinda i guess.owells at least my clique in school is still the same and i still love them.heh.though now i am one reservoir buddyless since iman's quitting smoking but damn owells.last night was effing good.private party at barfly talk about awesome what's more the private room we got was a smoking room.thanks val (: (: alright.shit i am so going to be missing (private) though im sure we'll somehow meetup again soon.

damn for once im actually not celebrating halloween.i feel pretty awkward now.booo

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

4:16 AM

jessica is missing a whole bunch of people and is suffering from some major withdrawal symptoms of not having enough things to do.

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I'm in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way
I'm sorry the FEDS came and took me away

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
Enter 21 you know the club they say
Why doesn't anybody wanna take blame
For rising back out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

living in a world of illusions and technicoloured dreams

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, October 14, 2007

9:54 AM

yet another person died from bird flu recently and this time it just had to hit a 12 year old boy.i find it wierd on how some countries just sit back and watch and not actually get on into the act and do something.it gets quite sad to see people turn to their wits end and just succumb to fate.whatever it may be.it's just like that of the myanmar situation.on how those people there who are actually suffering are all those innocent lives who get affected for no apparent reason.the picture of the small boy with the cut across my stomach really tugged on my heartstrings.why isnt anyone doing anything and are these people just going to live in such a situation for the next few weeks,months and even years.i was talking to my friend about that situation recently and from the looks of it.it seemingly seems that such might just end up like that case of the tiananmen square incident.now that i clearly would not be surprised judging from the progression that has been made.now i just hope that gambari can actually help and do something useful that can cause a stir in the people.a good one at least.i have come to realise on how i have been so disconnected and unaware of the people and the different kinds of situation that is going in singapore.a recent trip to an old folks home made me think twice about the aged in singapore.most there in fact just seemed to be waiting for their deathbed.they do not talk to each other.there was no interaction whatsoever and everyone just looked really sad.i just wonder am i going to end up such one day?and could such actually be stopped in time?it's kinda ironic on how singaporeans react to different cases in singapore.the case of the man crushed by the builiding.everyone was more just interested about the drama and stuff going on.but ever thought what the family must be feeling?and could such actually be prevented by not putting so much weight on the 17th floor?i am certain there's so much more to the case.not forgetting that of the china women's tia na case(ok i cant remember the name).why do singaporeans actually bother to help a china national when there are so many singaporeans right here in front of their very eyes who are desperately calling out for help?are we that blind to overlook those people who actually NEED the money rather than blowing it all on that woman who ended up living the life due to "compassionate donations".dont you just find such ironic?i guess everyone can actually grab a hold of their lifes and somehow alter fate a little.to me i just think everything just takes a little small step.and who knows things might actually change for the better.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

9:33 AM

my life thus far - crazy,fun,out of control yet of total satisfactory.

last friday was a blast.i would so do anything to relive that night.dinner with the girlfriends first followed by a night of champagne,dance,snapshots and more friends.love love.

they are my baby girls (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;